Feeling mildly calmer, with the phrase ‘one day at a time’ pulsing gently in my consciousness as if from somewhere simultaneously within and without. I grasp at some semblance of realisation that the terror I feel is the most logical thing in this chaotic world: anything awful can happen at any moment and feeling secure… Read More It’s only a passing thing, this shadow
Despair is the necessary prerequisite for the next degree of consciousness. That’s absolutely a prerequisite Ram Dass It’s getting on for 6am and I’m still just lying here, awake. Dark thoughts swirl around the periphery of my chemical-tinged, completely wired consciousness that I’m not sure is even dented by the muscle relaxants, the beta-blockers, the… Read More Hello darkness, my old friend
What if we are these human receptacles housing souls that are on possibly infinite stages of evolution and life is basically a Super Mario game, a series of tests to reach the next level? Consciousness is one entity experiencing itself subjectively, a wise person named Bill Hicks once said. What if this time around you’re… Read More What if?
I just completed a retreat in Amsterdam Forest where about 20 people from different countries partook in three days and three nights of Ayahuasca ceremonying and general spiritual raving. Ayahuasca is a brew made from some plants that grow in the Amazon which is used by people there as a traditional spiritual medicine in ceremonies… Read More They buried me, but they didn’t know I was a seed