It’s only a passing thing, this shadow

Feeling mildly calmer, with the phrase ‘one day at a time’ pulsing gently in my consciousness as if from somewhere simultaneously within and without. I grasp at some semblance of realisation that the terror I feel is the most logical thing in this chaotic world: anything awful can happen at any moment and feeling secure… Read More It’s only a passing thing, this shadow

Hello darkness, my old friend

Despair is the necessary prerequisite for the next degree of consciousness. That’s absolutely a prerequisite  Ram Dass  It’s getting on for 6am and I’m still just lying here, awake. Dark thoughts swirl around the periphery of my chemical-tinged, completely wired consciousness that I’m not sure is even dented by the muscle relaxants, the beta-blockers, the… Read More Hello darkness, my old friend